" Do you feel more numb now.?"

updated: 6/26. I started writting this in response to having my first cavity. this is oxymoron is a direct quote from one of the people helping the Dr. being told i had a cavity was a tramatizing experience for me.but i still remember the day pretty vividly. i remember trying to soak it all p I remember they music on the radio poke her face came on by kid cudi, and Pain by three days grace.http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/dental/DE00001/NSECTIONGROUP=2

i have notes from this on my other laptop if that screen ever works again and i can access it. as you can tell from half finished short blog post i can be a bit of a self defeating perfetionist at times. but i have always enjoyed writting and in the past it has only been meant for me and served as am eans of sorting out my life and eased my introspected mind/soul. no other place could my mind and soul intertwix, it was a peaceful. but this solitary activity worked well for me because i am just horrible with typos and such and its a bit of a sore spot for me.

though writting in the past has been just for me i have always had that urge to share my thoughts and perspectives with others. as quiet and maybe even some might have thought of me as calmed up on the outside, I have always had a deeprooted longing to express myself to others. but thats part of the beauty of writting you can tweak and keep going with your thoughts uninterupted. I have always felt like many my thoughts often are too big and sometimes even too complex to fit neatly into sound bites. and well sometimes i think i just have a harder time than some breaking down my thoughts and condencing them a bit. heard and won't be cut off as happens when talking it gives people a full view instead of what they were prviy too till the convo took a turn in a new directon before my complete view could be voiced.


hahaha look what was on USA network tongiht on their NCIS marathon, Abby enters and is upset about having a cavity and is on the way to her dentist. Gibbs enters and they take off for the crime scene. The victim is PFC Marco Riggs. His cell scanner is what the baby monitor picked up when he was trying to call 911 with it. http://cbsncis.wetpaint.com/page/6.21+Toxic