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Friday, September 3, 2010
Monday, July 5, 2010
I keep trying to write on this blog and I have about three half finished posts saved in my Word program. I don't know what I am waiting for exactly. I know that I am fearful. Of what? Apparently it lies too deep to easily pinpoint/quickly overcome. I do know that fear is a negative and its best to avoid action or inaction caused by fear. It's always best to act with love. Apparently Im not loving enough towards myself to post courageously weather what I have to say is perfect or not. I have recently joined twitter and I am hoping that to be sort of a gateway to bigger blogging ventures.
~I just came across a link to this on my twitter~
"Stop judging yourself. That’s it. End of story.
Oh, you have questions? Of course, just like me.
When you stop judging yourself, you can listen to inspiration. You can hear the voice of love, choice, wisdom and true direction. Or you can listen to self-judgment, a voice of attack, limits, smallness, and a voice that always threatens some misfortune, or just can’t help but point to cobwebs in your past. In the wisdom tradition of A Course in Miracles, it says “Your divided devotion has given you the two voices, and you must choose at which altar you want to serve.”
What does serving the voice of judgment get you? It’ s like inviting a bad houseguest into your living space, one that is noisy, rude, throwing things around and then complaining about the mess. I used to think that self-judgment was somehow a tool for staying sharp, getting ahead, not falling asleep at the wheel. I can’t tell you how much time I’ve spent, deciding, that while I’ve never been this age, or in this career, or on this exact leg of my journey, I knew how it should go, what should not be happening. I spent so much time lamenting my circumstances, that I had no real time or energy to actually investigate them. Self -judgment doesn’t keep you savvy. It keeps you ignorant and uninvolved with reality.
Self-judgment blocks your sense of true direction. You can’t hear the bird song when the tuba takes over. “Oh, you’ll never get anywhere, this isn’t good. You’ll never amount to anything. I can’t believe you’re this age and you still haven’t gotten it together.” But what if you were listening to a voice of trust and love instead? One that said, “I know you can do this. Take all the time you need. I believe in you. I know you have more strength than you can imagine. ”
This is the best piece of advice I can ever give you: Cultivate the voice of self- love inside you.
Listen to the angels of acceptance. Listen to your Buddha Nature. Listen to the smallest golden leaf on the aspen tree, your Aunt Sadie who bakes oatmeal cookies, Jesus, that rascal of forgiveness, your golden retriever. Listen to the exuberant river. Listen to Allah or Moses come down from the mountain with awe on his face. Listen to the poets Rumi or Kabir, Blake or Whitman. They are all saying one thing and one thing only: You are loved. You are loved. You have everything inside you. This moment will absolutely free you, if you free it from judgment.
Everyone struggles with self-judgment. Even one of the most famous peace leaders of our time, Gandhi, once said, “My most formidable opponent is a man named Mohandas K. Gandhi. With him I seem to have very little influence.” But where does self-judgment come from? Self judgment is often somebody’s inappropriate expectations or distorted opinion pressed down upon your innocence. It’s somebody’s lack of love for themselves, their own soul’s jaundice, poison, or ache that got foisted onto you. You didn’t know it was a misunderstanding. You believed the lie. You believed you were broken or doing it wrong. You believed what your soul could never believe. So you stopped listening to your own soul and allowed the lie to move in and buy furniture, home décor, an education and a lifestyle. Now it’s time to listen to your soul. Now it’s time to let go of the cracked and blackened mirror." http://wisdomalacarte.net/blog/the-secret-to-living-your-true-life-stop-judging-yourself/2009/10/
I have been seriously been considering going to confession for WOW! almost 2months now, it started out as a silly suggestion in the fainsest of ways, I heard someone talking to themselves out loud bright and early one morning and it started me thinking and ever since the idea has been gaining appeal in my brain. I havent gone in forever. Its something else I am desperately afraid of, it means confronting my past. alot of my past all at once I havent gone in oh, 7ish years. Talk about daunting! The process of it seems time consuming and im dreading the aftermath might be a lot to deal with. But i feel like it would be a great part of my effort to clean and gain self acceptance to go forth ever more unencumbered by things that hold me back. and honestly one of the biggest selling points it has going is that I am TERRIFIED of the thought of it, and as the saying goes, "do something everyday that scares you" and I cant think of anything that would be more noteworthy than that. and its soo incredibly random well it's starting to seem less random and make more sense but not when the idea first creeped into my brain early one sunday Morning back in May. anyway i wrote this reflection while looking a picture of Carolyn Murphy taken by Steven Meisel in '05 Italian Vogue. WHAT i'm calling:
~summer baptism~ and I want it to be true in all areas of my life:
~~~ to immerse in WATER, as a spiritual Cleansing process. To dedicate or Christen. Clear ',Commence Continuously, practice Saucha, daily plenish and always revivify the love that moves the sun and the other stars.~~~
~I just came across a link to this on my twitter~
"Stop judging yourself. That’s it. End of story.
Oh, you have questions? Of course, just like me.
When you stop judging yourself, you can listen to inspiration. You can hear the voice of love, choice, wisdom and true direction. Or you can listen to self-judgment, a voice of attack, limits, smallness, and a voice that always threatens some misfortune, or just can’t help but point to cobwebs in your past. In the wisdom tradition of A Course in Miracles, it says “Your divided devotion has given you the two voices, and you must choose at which altar you want to serve.”
What does serving the voice of judgment get you? It’ s like inviting a bad houseguest into your living space, one that is noisy, rude, throwing things around and then complaining about the mess. I used to think that self-judgment was somehow a tool for staying sharp, getting ahead, not falling asleep at the wheel. I can’t tell you how much time I’ve spent, deciding, that while I’ve never been this age, or in this career, or on this exact leg of my journey, I knew how it should go, what should not be happening. I spent so much time lamenting my circumstances, that I had no real time or energy to actually investigate them. Self -judgment doesn’t keep you savvy. It keeps you ignorant and uninvolved with reality.
Self-judgment blocks your sense of true direction. You can’t hear the bird song when the tuba takes over. “Oh, you’ll never get anywhere, this isn’t good. You’ll never amount to anything. I can’t believe you’re this age and you still haven’t gotten it together.” But what if you were listening to a voice of trust and love instead? One that said, “I know you can do this. Take all the time you need. I believe in you. I know you have more strength than you can imagine. ”
This is the best piece of advice I can ever give you: Cultivate the voice of self- love inside you.
Listen to the angels of acceptance. Listen to your Buddha Nature. Listen to the smallest golden leaf on the aspen tree, your Aunt Sadie who bakes oatmeal cookies, Jesus, that rascal of forgiveness, your golden retriever. Listen to the exuberant river. Listen to Allah or Moses come down from the mountain with awe on his face. Listen to the poets Rumi or Kabir, Blake or Whitman. They are all saying one thing and one thing only: You are loved. You are loved. You have everything inside you. This moment will absolutely free you, if you free it from judgment.
Everyone struggles with self-judgment. Even one of the most famous peace leaders of our time, Gandhi, once said, “My most formidable opponent is a man named Mohandas K. Gandhi. With him I seem to have very little influence.” But where does self-judgment come from? Self judgment is often somebody’s inappropriate expectations or distorted opinion pressed down upon your innocence. It’s somebody’s lack of love for themselves, their own soul’s jaundice, poison, or ache that got foisted onto you. You didn’t know it was a misunderstanding. You believed the lie. You believed you were broken or doing it wrong. You believed what your soul could never believe. So you stopped listening to your own soul and allowed the lie to move in and buy furniture, home décor, an education and a lifestyle. Now it’s time to listen to your soul. Now it’s time to let go of the cracked and blackened mirror." http://wisdomalacarte.net/blog/the-secret-to-living-your-true-life-stop-judging-yourself/2009/10/
I have been seriously been considering going to confession for WOW! almost 2months now, it started out as a silly suggestion in the fainsest of ways, I heard someone talking to themselves out loud bright and early one morning and it started me thinking and ever since the idea has been gaining appeal in my brain. I havent gone in forever. Its something else I am desperately afraid of, it means confronting my past. alot of my past all at once I havent gone in oh, 7ish years. Talk about daunting! The process of it seems time consuming and im dreading the aftermath might be a lot to deal with. But i feel like it would be a great part of my effort to clean and gain self acceptance to go forth ever more unencumbered by things that hold me back. and honestly one of the biggest selling points it has going is that I am TERRIFIED of the thought of it, and as the saying goes, "do something everyday that scares you" and I cant think of anything that would be more noteworthy than that. and its soo incredibly random well it's starting to seem less random and make more sense but not when the idea first creeped into my brain early one sunday Morning back in May. anyway i wrote this reflection while looking a picture of Carolyn Murphy taken by Steven Meisel in '05 Italian Vogue. WHAT i'm calling:
~summer baptism~ and I want it to be true in all areas of my life:
~~~ to immerse in WATER, as a spiritual Cleansing process. To dedicate or Christen. Clear ',Commence Continuously, practice Saucha, daily plenish and always revivify the love that moves the sun and the other stars.~~~
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Under a strawberry moon, I return...
...hopefully you find the things I have to share are just as illuminating!
I found 2 helpful health outlines that I felt compelled to immediately pass on:
"The function of the human body is a complex array of physiological processes dominated by three main situations: trauma, toxins, and thoughts (perceptions). These three (T's) lead to the first step of malfunction; dis-ease. The following are my major recommendations " for keeping for keeping proactive about your well-being:
1. Control your insulin levels: Make certain that you limit your intake of processed foods and sugars as much as possible. Elevated insulin destroys the body’s systems.
2. Get appropriate amounts of omega-3 fats found in fish, nuts and flax seed.
3. Get appropriate exercise. One of the primary reasons exercise works is that it drives your insulin levels down. Controlling insulin levels is one of the most powerful ways to reduce your cancer risks.
4. Normalize your vitamin D levels with safe amounts of sun exposure. Vitamin D is naturally produced by the human body when exposed to direct sunlight. Season, geographic latitude, time of day, cloud cover, smog, and sunscreen affect UV ray exposure and vitamin D synthesis in the skin, and it is important for individuals with limited sun exposure to include good sources of vitamin D in their diet. Extra vitamin D is also recommended for older adults and people with dark skin. Individuals having a high risk of deficiency should consume 25 μg (1000 IU) of vitamin D daily to maintain adequate blood concentrations
5. Only 25 percent of people eat enough vegetables, try to shoot for 50% of your diet to include raw food (**rich in enzymes**) , mainly vegetables and fruit.
6. Make sure you are not in the two-thirds of the population who are overweight and maintain an ideal body weight.
7. Get enough sleep, roughly 6-8 hours regularly.
8. Reduce your exposure to environmental toxins like pesticides, household chemical cleaners, synthetic air fresheners and air pollution.
borrowed from : http://www.thenewwellness.com/?p=3014
And then this is from Spark people, I just took out the few items it mentioned of products that are fortified,( cause whats the point of that).
LIST OF FOOD CONTAINING ample amount of CALCIUM
Food Serving Size Calcium
Collard greens 1 cup, boiled 357 mg
Black-eyed peas 1 cup, boiled 211 mg
Firm tofu (made with calcium sulfate) 1/2 cup 204 mg
Blackstrap molasses 1 Tbsp 172 mg
Baked beans 1 cup, canned 154 mg
Kale 1 cup, cooked 94 mg
Chinese cabbage 1 cup, raw 74 mg
Oranges 1 cup 72 mg
Almonds 1 oz 70 mg
Here is a website if you desire another Calcium advice resource: http://ods.od.nih.gov/factsheets/calcium.asp
I found 2 helpful health outlines that I felt compelled to immediately pass on:
"The function of the human body is a complex array of physiological processes dominated by three main situations: trauma, toxins, and thoughts (perceptions). These three (T's) lead to the first step of malfunction; dis-ease. The following are my major recommendations " for keeping for keeping proactive about your well-being:
1. Control your insulin levels: Make certain that you limit your intake of processed foods and sugars as much as possible. Elevated insulin destroys the body’s systems.
2. Get appropriate amounts of omega-3 fats found in fish, nuts and flax seed.
3. Get appropriate exercise. One of the primary reasons exercise works is that it drives your insulin levels down. Controlling insulin levels is one of the most powerful ways to reduce your cancer risks.
4. Normalize your vitamin D levels with safe amounts of sun exposure. Vitamin D is naturally produced by the human body when exposed to direct sunlight. Season, geographic latitude, time of day, cloud cover, smog, and sunscreen affect UV ray exposure and vitamin D synthesis in the skin, and it is important for individuals with limited sun exposure to include good sources of vitamin D in their diet. Extra vitamin D is also recommended for older adults and people with dark skin. Individuals having a high risk of deficiency should consume 25 μg (1000 IU) of vitamin D daily to maintain adequate blood concentrations
5. Only 25 percent of people eat enough vegetables, try to shoot for 50% of your diet to include raw food (**rich in enzymes**) , mainly vegetables and fruit.
6. Make sure you are not in the two-thirds of the population who are overweight and maintain an ideal body weight.
7. Get enough sleep, roughly 6-8 hours regularly.
8. Reduce your exposure to environmental toxins like pesticides, household chemical cleaners, synthetic air fresheners and air pollution.
borrowed from : http://www.thenewwellness.com/?p=3014
And then this is from Spark people, I just took out the few items it mentioned of products that are fortified,( cause whats the point of that).
LIST OF FOOD CONTAINING ample amount of CALCIUM
Food Serving Size Calcium
Collard greens 1 cup, boiled 357 mg
Black-eyed peas 1 cup, boiled 211 mg
Firm tofu (made with calcium sulfate) 1/2 cup 204 mg
Blackstrap molasses 1 Tbsp 172 mg
Baked beans 1 cup, canned 154 mg
Kale 1 cup, cooked 94 mg
Chinese cabbage 1 cup, raw 74 mg
Oranges 1 cup 72 mg
Almonds 1 oz 70 mg
Here is a website if you desire another Calcium advice resource: http://ods.od.nih.gov/factsheets/calcium.asp
Thursday, August 20, 2009
" Do you feel more numb now.?"
updated: 6/26. I started writting this in response to having my first cavity. this is oxymoron is a direct quote from one of the people helping the Dr. being told i had a cavity was a tramatizing experience for me.but i still remember the day pretty vividly. i remember trying to soak it all p I remember they music on the radio poke her face came on by kid cudi, and Pain by three days grace.http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/dental/DE00001/NSECTIONGROUP=2
i have notes from this on my other laptop if that screen ever works again and i can access it. as you can tell from half finished short blog post i can be a bit of a self defeating perfetionist at times. but i have always enjoyed writting and in the past it has only been meant for me and served as am eans of sorting out my life and eased my introspected mind/soul. no other place could my mind and soul intertwix, it was a peaceful. but this solitary activity worked well for me because i am just horrible with typos and such and its a bit of a sore spot for me.
though writting in the past has been just for me i have always had that urge to share my thoughts and perspectives with others. as quiet and maybe even some might have thought of me as calmed up on the outside, I have always had a deeprooted longing to express myself to others. but thats part of the beauty of writting you can tweak and keep going with your thoughts uninterupted. I have always felt like many my thoughts often are too big and sometimes even too complex to fit neatly into sound bites. and well sometimes i think i just have a harder time than some breaking down my thoughts and condencing them a bit. heard and won't be cut off as happens when talking it gives people a full view instead of what they were prviy too till the convo took a turn in a new directon before my complete view could be voiced.
hahaha look what was on USA network tongiht on their NCIS marathon, Abby enters and is upset about having a cavity and is on the way to her dentist. Gibbs enters and they take off for the crime scene. The victim is PFC Marco Riggs. His cell scanner is what the baby monitor picked up when he was trying to call 911 with it. http://cbsncis.wetpaint.com/page/6.21+Toxic
i have notes from this on my other laptop if that screen ever works again and i can access it. as you can tell from half finished short blog post i can be a bit of a self defeating perfetionist at times. but i have always enjoyed writting and in the past it has only been meant for me and served as am eans of sorting out my life and eased my introspected mind/soul. no other place could my mind and soul intertwix, it was a peaceful. but this solitary activity worked well for me because i am just horrible with typos and such and its a bit of a sore spot for me.
though writting in the past has been just for me i have always had that urge to share my thoughts and perspectives with others. as quiet and maybe even some might have thought of me as calmed up on the outside, I have always had a deeprooted longing to express myself to others. but thats part of the beauty of writting you can tweak and keep going with your thoughts uninterupted. I have always felt like many my thoughts often are too big and sometimes even too complex to fit neatly into sound bites. and well sometimes i think i just have a harder time than some breaking down my thoughts and condencing them a bit. heard and won't be cut off as happens when talking it gives people a full view instead of what they were prviy too till the convo took a turn in a new directon before my complete view could be voiced.
hahaha look what was on USA network tongiht on their NCIS marathon, Abby enters and is upset about having a cavity and is on the way to her dentist. Gibbs enters and they take off for the crime scene. The victim is PFC Marco Riggs. His cell scanner is what the baby monitor picked up when he was trying to call 911 with it. http://cbsncis.wetpaint.com/page/6.21+Toxic
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Vade mecum *
As you all know I am in Nantucket, ACK, Heaven. Let loose on the town the first store I had to hit up was of course, Nantucket Bookworks. I found the most adorable water bottle there , the one I bought is Navy blue with a Whale and says "I love water". It was love at first sight -it has a wider mouth than mostother stainless steal water bottles, so you can actually put ice cubes in this one!! I just checked out their website, to see what other adorable things they had, and just as I suspected, it is a goldmine! If you are in the market for a sassy, charming water bottle Blueq is where you need to go.
I also picked up two Readables : The Nantucket Reader, and the Art of Eating.
I must get back to being in the moment. I want to stay here forever, whereas that is a completely ludicrous desire for un-numeral reasons, I need to get back to soaking up as much of this unparalleled atmosphere. Carpe Diem. My sincere wish for everyone, and especially you my beloved readers is that everyone can have a seize the moment experience that they are able to recall when life throws us for a loop! And that you can transcendentally travel back to that spot and relive that spellbinding moment, whenever you want. That you are blessed enough to find that Earthly haven where you are reminded that us mortals are meant to live life abundantly.
~Namaste~
* May your language never be "dead". May your ideas be timeless, in a world where the vernacular is in constant flux.
I also picked up two Readables : The Nantucket Reader, and the Art of Eating.
I must get back to being in the moment. I want to stay here forever, whereas that is a completely ludicrous desire for un-numeral reasons, I need to get back to soaking up as much of this unparalleled atmosphere. Carpe Diem. My sincere wish for everyone, and especially you my beloved readers is that everyone can have a seize the moment experience that they are able to recall when life throws us for a loop! And that you can transcendentally travel back to that spot and relive that spellbinding moment, whenever you want. That you are blessed enough to find that Earthly haven where you are reminded that us mortals are meant to live life abundantly.
~Namaste~
* May your language never be "dead". May your ideas be timeless, in a world where the vernacular is in constant flux.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Snapperdoodle!
Right now I am pretty tired. Yesterday My twin COusins and I explored DC But first we went on a morning run. Though a lovely garden that has a 'heart smart trail, and excellent varied terrain one mile loop. And basically we were on our feet running around a city from 8am-8pm that was built on swamp and definitely still feels like one in August. So now I am sipping on some AGAVE MATE.
"The Aztecs believed agave was a gift from the gods - and not just because it's the plant from which tequila is made. Agave has also been used for thousands of years as a delicious low-glycemic sweetener. In this intoxicatingly refreshing brew, we blend the smooth, sweet nectar with Yerba Mate (pronounced MAH-tay), a rainforest plant that provides a natural energy boost. Mate is considered to be the ancient drink of health and friendship, so go ahead and give it a shot. Don't worry, we won't card you."
I don't know about this Agave because it comes from the same plant as tequila, I have to look into this more. more soon.included the explanation of snapperdoodle.WIP- Work In Progress
Snapperdoodle is a name i acquired after i made a sudden out burst at the dinner table. i have bouts where i get very worked up about things and over emote. Anyways that night the title of "snapperdoodle" was born and the pure ridiculousness of the sound of this name spurred an eruption of laughter from my entire family who was gathered around the dining room table. the name is now awarded to anyone and serves nicely to undermine the pressure of the situation
"The Aztecs believed agave was a gift from the gods - and not just because it's the plant from which tequila is made. Agave has also been used for thousands of years as a delicious low-glycemic sweetener. In this intoxicatingly refreshing brew, we blend the smooth, sweet nectar with Yerba Mate (pronounced MAH-tay), a rainforest plant that provides a natural energy boost. Mate is considered to be the ancient drink of health and friendship, so go ahead and give it a shot. Don't worry, we won't card you."
I don't know about this Agave because it comes from the same plant as tequila, I have to look into this more. more soon.included the explanation of snapperdoodle.WIP- Work In Progress
Snapperdoodle is a name i acquired after i made a sudden out burst at the dinner table. i have bouts where i get very worked up about things and over emote. Anyways that night the title of "snapperdoodle" was born and the pure ridiculousness of the sound of this name spurred an eruption of laughter from my entire family who was gathered around the dining room table. the name is now awarded to anyone and serves nicely to undermine the pressure of the situation
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